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It’s the first time I havent spent the day with my fella on his birthday.. It feels very strange. He wont open his cards or gifts until he gets back Friday, But i hope today manages to bring him some smiles even though he has to work..  Happy Birthday Steve!

He said hes holding the picture of what we did last year in his head today so hopefully will be able to add to that when he gets home.

We are going out Saturday to see our friends which we are both really looking forward to and Sunday im taking him out for a meal. Hes been waiting for a restuarant to open here, which has its grand opening this weekend..So its perfect timing ..

Today i need to walk miles to go pick up some sausages my grandad got the kids so im gonna grab a shower before i start, Ive already done the packing and emails so am ahead of myself this morning, it was too hot to sleep anyway so i got up at stupid 0 clock as usual.

Ive got the size converter working in my old site  now so am trying to figure this out later and see if i can mend it in the new site, im halfway through taking it out of the templates and prefer them with it in.. Its because the new site automatically caches that it doesnt work in there so i need to sort one out that will work with my new system.. its so boring doing the same thing over and over, I do a bit on one site then move onto the next, but its getting done slowly. Im getting my eldest working with me tonight and getting him on the directory.. I can see now exactly why my fella works nights! theres always a list that never gets finished and  just grows..and this type of work you cannot do when you have kids buzzing around you..

The Royal Norfolk Show is starting today which so many of my friends from the stables are competing in, so ill be catching up on what the day has held in store for them throughout the equestrian events and posting it.. I hope next year me and Mandy will have our own horse to share so we can join them there.. Id love that.. My goal is to get up to her level so we can buy a horse between us that is suitable for us to share..I loved the dressage competition last year and intend on doing a lot more of that as well as jumping…

My legs this morning are a nice shade of black and blue from riding, I dont think its riding Kenny that did this its more like saturdays awakening on the bigger horse, im walking like John Wayne today with hips that ache on top from belly dancing.. 

Perhaps that walk is a positive move this morning..lol

written by Joanne \\ tags: Family and Homelife, Horse Riding

Its a day where i want to be near noone, yet need to go somewhere..

My daughter is crazing me to paint her room, my fella cant find the time to take down the castle, i cant find any kind of patience today and dont honestly want to be here…. not a good day!

I hate feeling like this, its not often, so somehow ill get through today..

I think ill start with going for a walk……..

written by Joanne \\ tags: Family and Homelife, Horse Riding, My Fashion Business

The weekends gone so quickly, do you ever get that feeling like youre hemmed in? its a time when you want to find some peace and quiet but it simply doesnt come..
We’ve had our friend here for meals which has been really nice ..

I came back from riding yesterday to find him and my kids all cooking brunch.. hed got my fella out of bed at 9am on his day off, which made me laugh like hell, and managed to get the kids all involved with cooking.. then took all the kids off ice skating and to the cinema…lol he really is totally nuts..

Riding went much better, Phil gave me an in between horse, hes not small but not huge either, my bum actually fitted his saddle without hurting for a change so it went pretty well.
He is good and know what hes doing with me, by the end of the lesson he had me cantering round, and using a whip (even if it was just twice) but feeling much more confident in myself as the horse was doing what i wanted him to.. its like he says, if you get on that horse the first 20 seconds dictates how the horse will act, i did what i was told and hes shown me that his way does work, so even though im not so keen on whips, ill use it if i have to and mean that, hopefully cutting out all this crap im giving myself, by trying to do it my way.. being stubborn isnt how we learn so that needs to go….

Ive asked for Jack tonight, I dont know if that was stupid or not, he was the first thing that came into my head when Phil asked me who it is i really want to ride…
The girl who had him last week was so bloody good, and only my size, so my fella pointed out quite correctly.. it can be done Jo..

The only difference between her and me, is my attitude and lack of confidence in my own abilities and the fact she did it so well, i would love to be able to ride like that, so tonight i need to prove i can and want to do this to myself.

Today i am getting the packing done before 12, doing the stock take with the help of my best mate stelli (whos kindly offered on her day off to lend a hand) and hopefully find some time to dye my hair.. im cooking again for everyone, but leaving it to my fella to dish up, as when they get home at 6 im off………….riding is earlier tonight at 6.30.. by tomorrow i can start my new project on my site and be able to find some quiet, ive got the rest of the week on my own then, as it looks like my fella may be going away…

Thank god the kids go back today, i love them to bits, but finding some space in this house has proven impossible, im starting to feel pretty frustrated and just want some time to myself now………

I think today my headset may start to make its appearance again….Im needing music to get me through this lot, and half a dozen cans of red bull… Its only Monday and im already shattered…

written by Joanne \\ tags: Family and Homelife, Horse Riding, My Fashion Business

Ive had a week filled with all sorts of thoughts… Well id be in serious trouble really if i hadn’t got any wouldn’t i !  sometimes i don’t half come out with some blonde stuff, i dont even have to think about it, it just comes naturally ..

What i meant was, Ive made some decisions, kicked myself up my arse and decided to sort out the riding problem, it wont get me anywhere if i quit.. its not something i would normally even think about, so Sunday I’m going with my confident G string on and am just gonna do it..

I spoke to Phil last night on Facebook, hes a nice guy and said he only got angry with me as he knows i can do it, i only got angry as i know i can too so was upset with myself, it was silly, having my Monday night defeatist attitude made it worse i know that. He says he has a plan for what he is going do with me, so ill trust him and not worry and just get out there and do my best.. I’m really hoping inside he gives me a bigger horse for once, but knowing Phil and his love of the smaller horses ill probably get a frigging midget now…., ill have to show it who is boss and harden up a bit, I’m what the dressage ladies called me, a sympathetic rider! that means im too bloody soft with the horses for my own good…. they were just talking posh to make it sound interesting..

This week Ive adopted a new lodger, my fellas invited Mark for tea everyday as his partners now gone of skiing, he is used to microwaved pizzas so I’m not sure how hell enjoy tonight’s Tobagan chicken, its probably not the type of food hes used to, but they have a lot on and i know he wont bother as hes on his own, so its the least i can do is do some extra, its already caused one discussion today as he kept insisiting he was providing tea tonight and buying everyone a chinese. Im really enjoying cooking this week and already have the meat out.. We certainly dont invite someone round for meals and expect them to provide them… what ever sort of people does he go round for tea normally..anyway id like to be able to get a couple of hours out tonight so i can go grab a tan and dye my hair so he will keep my fella company while im out of the picture..im out all night mondays now anyway so they can talk about work and craze the kids while they eat…

Today ive got to do a full stock take while hopefully keeping an eye out on the kids, theres a couple of extra up there as 2 had sleepovers, so as long as they dont trash my house i dont mind, my fellas list of ‘to do stuff’ means i need to know every garment i have, so im getting it done out if the way so i can then start what he wants me to do, its gonna take me weeks and isnt a small job, but its a good idea so ill get stuck in.. if i work hard today, he’ll be in a good mood and wont moan when i disappear Sunday and

Monday to go riding will he……………lol

Anyway im up with the birds, now going to feed them (as they are already forming a queue along the fence) and going to get stuck in early, this lot will sleep til lunchtime anyway, so i may even get the stock take done before they wake up..

I hope today’s a good one….

written by Joanne \\ tags: Family and Homelife, Horse Riding, Ramblings